February 15, 2010 5:27 AM PST
So today is a wierd day,
A little emotional and feeling off balance for some reason. Strange how that works. Oh that's right, it is called being female...haha...
here is what is making it wierd...
Why is it that I have lost 100 pounds and went from wearing a size 22+ to a size 6 or 8 depending on the outfit, yet when I look in the mirror I still see obese. I feel like I am having a little crisis and I don't know why. I still feel like when I walk through a door people are staring because of how ginormous I am and that I will never meet that "attractive" standard.
Why is it that the only way today that I feel that i have lost the weight is because I step on the scale or put on an old outfit and see that I can wrap myself in it 4 times over.
What is wrong with me?? Uuugh!!!
Sweetie.. there is nothing "wrong" with you. How long were you programed to think that you are fat? Do you think that it just unprograms immediately? No it doesn't. You may need to help yourself by possitive affirmations. Remind yourself that you are now thin and lookin good. Really listen when others give you compliments. I know that they have to be tell you how great you look!!!!!!
It may help to be on the possitive thinking wave on more things in your life. It may rub off on your self image. Just know that you have all of our support and I am proud of you to come out and state how you feel so that you can get more possitive feed back. Really you are an inspiration!!
February 15, 2010 5:28 AM PST
Oh yeah on my possitive note, I got dressed for work today and my pants are almost falling off. -27. YES!!!!!!
February 15, 2010 6:18 AM PST
February 15, 2010 6:23 AM PST
Were you drinking a Mexican beverage??
February 15, 2010 6:33 AM PST
I've got about 15-20lbs to go before I'm where I'd like to be. I've lost about 21lbs since I had the baby 5 months ago though!
February 15, 2010 7:05 AM PST
hehehe.. they haven't fallen all the way off .. yet!