June 29, 2010 1:28 PM PDT
When I write, it's always how I feel, as I'm sure it is with everyone. So I've spent most of today reflecting on the events and the people I met at the Meet and Greet in Bowling Green. I left work early because I just wasn't into it and when I got the call that one of the little one's was under the weather and had to go see the Doc, it was just enough of an excuse to bolt and spend the day at home. So I thought good and hard about what I wanted to say and what it really was that made this weekend remarkable for me.
When you have a great experience, there are always an endless supply of cliche's that can be referenced to try and fill the sentences with how you felt about it. And thinking back into my experience with expressing my thoughts through written word, I couldn't seem to find anything that quite fit the bill of what I wanted to express about all of you who came into my familys lives in a personal way this weekend until I got down to the root of what it was that happened. Many words are used for extraordinary experiences that are full of fluff or pomp and circumstance. There are superlatives for hyperbole to cover most any scenario where emphatic expression is desired. But that would be inappropriate for what my wife and I feel about what happened.
For this experience, words like ease, comfort and acceptance come in where they normally are considered mundane and unmoving. But for me, those ordinary attributes move mountains in the soul. There was a flow that was almost unnoticeable. As we all seemed to revel in the moments that passed and seemed to fill us with surprising excitement, it became clear to me, for me, that the excitement had nothing to do with the “goings on” of some momentous event or “fitting in”. There was none of that. It was come as you are and enjoy the fact that nobody is putting on a show. The personalities were as varied as they were numerous, yet seemed to meld together with an ease that, in the end, caused a mild anguish when we parted that surprised me almost as much as the way we all got along. It caused me to consider that it would possibly be a year before I was around such a group that had no expectations other than comfort and respect. No hoops to jump through or erratic strains that so many acquaintances tailspin into. It was just be here with people of kindred spirit and enjoy the lack of the struggle.
I saw looks turn into grins, that turned into smiles, that erupted into laughter and settled into tears a few times.
I left the “struggle” many years ago and with it went all but one, maybe two, friends outside the friendship I share with my wife. I don't miss a single one of those people, but I'm sure as hell going to miss how comfortable I felt when walking down the lane at the KOA to see who was around to talk to and not what was going to happen.
Comfort and respect. That sums it up for me. And to reference Bulldogs quote, not a day was wasted to an absence of laughter.....
Thanks guys and gals....All of you.